taryn 3.15.10

Happy St. Patricks day!
i cant believe i forgot thank you for the toothpaste last week that was in my package! it is incredible! thank you so much.
well thailand is officially in a national security crisis right now! where im at were ok, but bangkok is filled with millions of redshirts. there are two big political groups here the yellow and the red shirts and the reds have gathered and are protesting something, tons from udon have gone down, we are a very redshirt area. we had to buy a 4 day supply of food just in case we have to stay inside. bangkok has closed all entrances for the next few days! we havent seen much except for last week as we were biking past the park that usually has a man on a stage doing some kind of funny aerobics with hundreds following. this week the man in spandex was replaced by a man whos voice that sounded like hitler's but in thai, it was pretty freaky! tons of people gathered, stands set up selling all different kinds of red shirts. kinda freaky but also neat to witness! i wish i could watch the news and see whats actually going on down the the teeb (bangkok)
for a few days last week it was in the 60-70s from a typhoon that was close by. hah it was like winter here, everyone was wearing winter coats, beanies, and were freezing! hah i was actually a little chilly as well, i think im going to freeze coming back in nov! it was a really nice break, it felt like fall time. its back to incredible blistering humid heat now, and will most likely stay this way until julyish.
my companion and i went to the park again this morning and i ran around the playground for a long time, it felt so so good, i havent gotten to excercise like that for such a long time, i miss it! then we "lifted" with the hilarious workout machines like things you stand on and swing your legs back and forth while holding handles that surround the playground that look like adult versions of the playground. it was hard not to laugh watching them, i love thais!
i dont know why, but i have a few stalkers right now. one not so serious, just a member from the ward who calls to talk to me often who were going to have to block his number, but the other one i little more scary. were teaching a lady named iang who is awesome, but she has a 'brother' who is very creepy looking. last mon we brought the elders to teach with us because we knew he would be there. on wed iang called me and ended up telling me that he really isnt her brother, a man that has been trying to force her to date him, but she has a husband in bangkok. she called saying that now he has fallen in love with me instead, and sorry to be blunt, but tells her that he wants to have my children. she, the elders, and i keep telling him i cant and im not interested,but iang says that he gets what he wants and is very forceful. we are being really careful, we only teach her at the church, and the the elders are forcing me to let them escort us home whenever leaving the church, and we also have to take different ways to and from home. honestly dont worry about it, nothing has happened and nothing will, its just a pain!!!!
the area is starting to roll a little more! the elders have even picked up and are working hard, theyve got some good investigators finally! we are doing much better, its on its way upwards. lots of time in the heat talking to people, trying to help them see how essential our message is. we have a lot of people that are on their way, just need some more work.
my companion isnt moving. which also means that we dont go to the moves meeting this week in bangkok(it they are even able to have the meeting with all the redshirt stuff going on), another 6 weeks out in the boonies with no contact with sisters. were losing a lot of sisters, and still dont have any coming in for awhile. sad. lots of areas closing.
It feels like its been awhile since ive written you. i dont know why im so discouraged the past little while. november seems so far and the pictures of the family are looking more and more appealing. i know i have no room to complain, jord and morg and many others have longer. im trying so hard to be happy, positive, and love this but oh man im struggling right now, i cant figure it out. were working hard and being obedient. i am ready for the day that i wont wake up homesick and have my full desire to be a missionary, i thought that day would come a long time ago. please tell me itll come soon??! i want to absolutely love it here and love being a missionary. I think Heavenly Father must be teaching me patience and endurace. All i know is that this church really is true and that Heavenly Father truly knows the best for us, though sometimes like right now it is hard to see that. im sorry that this letter isnt the most happy and uplifting, im hoping for a change soon. i love you so so much and miss you like crazy.
love, ซิสเตร ยัง